What would have been my 10 year anniversary

The 1^st August would have been my 10 year anniversary with my Ex, now 10 years is a long time and you may be thinking why I would bring this anniversary up when it no longer matters, I don’t want to speak to her or celebrate this day in any way but this doesn’t mean I didn’t think about the fact it would have been 10 years. Now I wouldn’t mind if you thought that I would be upset or bothered today with all the possible relevance but im not, in any way, at all. In fact im happy! (Yep that happy word again!)

Why? Well not total sure about that one, After speaking to many people over the last few months I remember someone saying it takes you half the time you spent with someone before you are over them. Now for me that doesn’t work as I don’t want to spend the next 5 years getting over someone but I don’t think this works for everyone as I feel like im over the relationship hurt, There was another saying I heard which I like better, there is no set time to get over someone, could be years could be days it all depends on you! Now that dose fit very well for me as I will say again I want to get on with my life and move on with it, the only thing I need to get over is selling my dam house, I know ‘if I put it on the market people will come’ and I know I need to be a little more patient but that’s what I want more than anything in the world

Now on to one of the reasons I feel so good especially on a day that I shouldn’t, I think we all know who im taking about! Which leads me smoothly on to the last weekend, So I trekked over to Liverpool to pick up the Girl im seeing and then back to Manchester to a birthday party for a friend which involved a BBQ and for me still to be alive righting this blog meant it was good, Back to mine for fun, laughs and drinks, I even treated her to breakfast in the morning, yes I know, Me! Spent the rest of Sunday chatting and listening to music (dam the Now albums, when media centre logs music it looks like you have a crap music selection as it lists artists names, crazy frog ect..) Now I know this doesn’t sound like an action packed weekend and it wasn’t but what a weekend, I really enjoyed my self and the company I was with and could do it every day but with 40 miles between us at the moment this is not a easy task, just seeing her some weeks is near to impossible but im like to think when it comes down to beating the impossible or not seeing her for a few week I could make the impossible possible any day of the week, its all about motivation!

So what dose the week have planned for me? Humm Drinks Wednesday night, not sure about Thursday night but im sure if I stay in the present mood I will be visiting Magull (Liverpool) or maybe Friday night, Saturday night is a 25^th party at a old friends and Sunday the day of rest im unsure about. With all this new found fun and adventure its means im on the road more and more, Tue/wed I racked up 250 miles and over the weekend I just missed 200 miles but its all very very worth it and would keep driving if I had to. (motivation!)

Stay tuned!

Before the weekend

So its Friday night and im at work till 3am (yep that right all you 9-5 people) and I have the full weekend off thanks to the wonderful skill of the schedule righter at work (there is your big thanks) and what do I have planned? Well fun! And that’s how it should be. Now you may have noticed a slight change in how I spend my days off over the last few weeks, there is less time working on the house and more time having fun. Why? Not totally sure but the fact im still the only one out of the two side of this break up to put what I would describe as ‘effort’ in to sorting out the house to improve our chance of selling and the now nasty way im being treated doesn’t motivate me to sell the house and hand over half the £££££. So instead of stopping my life and trying to do everything I have made the choice of instead saying ‘sorry I cant, got to work on my house!’ I say ‘Yep im off’.

The Weekend is hopefully going to be a fun few days, not totally sure of my plans (well I know who but not what) but some times its nice to just have fun with out a plan, Im sure food, drink will be involved and maybe some sun weather permitting

Ok lets cover the last few days of my week, had Tuesday off to clean and tidy and box thing up so I haven’t totally stopped the working on house thing. Wednesday was a different matter, Down to a beautiful beach of a picnic (well not a massive meal) and on to enjoy the finer surroundings of Formby, what I day! Its been a while sine I have had such a good time that time has just disappeared and to spend the last few hours of the day watching the sun set with someone who made it look ordinary was a beautiful end to a beautiful day.

Well I have to go as the Duty manager wants a brew and god forbid the dam management can make their own, you know what they say ‘pay peanuts get monkeys’

Just thought I would add some of the photo’s I have taken recently.

This was my Grandads pub,

After my Sunday drinking a took thease pissed.

They like him that much they named a park after him!

The Beatles, Nice.

The northern quarter

Old friends!

Today started with a good drink with an old friend, someone who I have known for years, lived with for some of that time but with anybodies life it tends to lead you all in different directions so its been a while since we went for a drink. It was good to catch up and remember some of the fun time we had both encountered through our life's and to find out what were both doing now.
While in a slightly drunken state we made our way to HVM to pick up 'Paolo Nuitun - these streets' as from what I heard it sound like a good album, and yes people I did but it from a shop with money and everything, but that wasn't the only album to be discovered on a slow Sunday, Regina Spektor has another fantastic sound and what an album, I was put on to 'Us' which is off the 'Soviet Kitsch' album and what a fantastic song,



Thought today was a lucky day to find to new and interesting sounds. Just give them a try!

Seeing someone!?!?! Yep i am!

Hi all, I cant stop for long as Im at work and my film is about to finish and I get to go home!!!!!! But I could not let today go buy with out making a entire on my blog.

The World is good and full of happiness, dose this sound like the talk of some one who is happy, yes it dose and yes I am, why? Well that would be down to one person and me finally admitting what and where this person fits in to my world. If you are a follower of my Blog you may have picked up on the ‘Good Friend’ saying a few times through out my adventures and for a time this is how I would have described my relationship with this person, Now this is something which dose make my think with the labels we give different stages of each relationship, I mean its only a name but I have and did decided that how ever its just a name I can be important. Being in the place Im in right now the last thing I want to do is rush back in to a relationship but I cant kid myself either, So here it is, Im Seeing someone! Now that wasn’t hard to say, it doesn’t make me feel like in rushing but it dose make me feel good and makes me smile every time I say it, not because of the relationship thing but because of the person Im talking about.

Well im now at home and its 4am, back up drinking tomorrow with some old friends which should be good to catch up so im off to bed, Night all x

So with the afternoon off and the morning spent cleaning my house I decided to take a trip out, not any trip out but a trip back to Liverpool, Know i know what most people think when you say the word 'Liverpool' and i must admit i would have been one of those people, you think of burn out cars sat on bricks, people trying to mug you every corner but how wrong could you be.

I ended up spending a fantastic day sat on the banks of the Leeds to Liverpool Cannel (strangely enough the same cannel that passes my house in Blackburn) so I thought I would take a photo and let you judge the view for your self.

But all this adventure had to come to an end and back in to work and thank God for GPS, i need to know where in going and that’s it, GPS dose all the work, no more getting lost not even knowing which way north is, its fantastic. so hour or so later and in work till 12pm (back at 9am or so) and i hope to the gods of 'fun' i get to go out tomorrow night

hottest day of the year?

How would I know sat in a room with no windows and air conditioning, I understand if you are sat in the sun this may sound appealing but trust me I would change places with you in a hart beat! Anyone? No didn’t think so.

So after a few drinks in the northern quarter of Manchester I was walking back from the train station to my house and I had totally forgot about the 'for sale sign' out side my house. Got to the end of my street and I was sooooooo happy, just to see the dam thing out side my house made my day, so much I ran up (drunk by the way) and gave it a big hug! Thinking about it know it shows my underlying feeling about this whole thing, Odd it took a wooden sign, mind you 'Stop! Hammer time' was just i sign and that made me smile for a while!

Manchester was a good night out, my very good looking friend (its a girl before you all start) gave me some very good advice which helped me in the position i now face. By position I mean the part of my life which involves Girls! or Girl would be more accrete. Being in the position i am now im not looking for ................ hummm mind blank ............. I am looking for something but not what I had and I think I have found something which makes me happy, i have no idea where it is going, I have fun and I feel things i have not felt for a long time. But this is only a part of the good feelings and i intend to keep them all coming.

I love kopparberg, the best thing to come out of Sweden (ok porn as well)
It has to have alcohol in it as there is a non alcoholic version out there (hum not sure there is a point but that comes from a drinker so it not aimed at me......arr......)
But it is a good drink, never tried cider before as i do tend to think of homeless people asking for change with a bottle of cider in one hand but i take it all back, it great. It dose seam to be involved with making me more relaxed and switched off the decision making department of my brain but i think 'drink' in general has the same affect.

You can get Kopparberg from all good Weather Spoons pubs (well in Manchester) and I think Ikea!

Well even though I have another hour sat at work I have to go, spent 40 mins lead in my garden last night at 1am, FANTASTIC! that’s my advice for to day, get home at night lie down and just look up, I don’t think we all look up enough, take in the sky and stars which i plan to do when home.

House for sale!!!!!

All i need is someone to buy it.

To much time on my hands?

After problems at work which i wont go in to i put thease 2 video's to gether, there are only slight changes to each one. hope you like it fella's.

So to start this tale of fun set us of at a night out, good night and fun time's got to stay at a friends which was handy after being called in to work to help with problems the following morning meant I only had to stagger a shot distance before I was at work. After a few house later I could start the reminder of my 3 days off, YES that’s right 3 days off and no I didn’t spoon to get it!

Monday comes around and it 'small stepping stone time' as my house was put on the market! This is a good thing but dose come with its work load! But I have the motivation to get on with it and see it through to the end.
Through all this im determined not to become petty about the time in my life now and make this transition an easy one for both people involved, I don’t want to regret my past or the time in my life now and like Yoda said hate leads to anger, anger leads to pain, pain leads to suffering ....................................... you know the rest...................................
But I don’t think is the same for both sides, the phrase 'I have been advised not to do that' or 'I don’t live there' after the lack of help doesn’t make we want to be not as nice about it but Yoda knows best.

So a quite drink with a friend to celebrate my house is now on the market is the plan for Tuesday night, nothing to big and back home for midnight (last train not because my carriage turn’s back in to a pumpkin) but before that some more work on the house.

I have had a few days of trying times and there seams to be some people who can pull me out of it but at the moment there is one who brings more, not quite sure how to describe it but it’s a good feeling but with out the help from my friends and family I wouldn’t be the person I am now to enjoy it, I know that’s I bit heavy to digest.

On my travels I fond this sine which made my giggle for some time, hope you like it.

During the make up of the right eye I got a little footage and decided to put togetter a video, not the best one I have done but I still like it.

Superman Returns

Just got home from a long day, start work at 10am, spend all day working and get out at 2am but I did get to watch Superman Returns in the Imax and god dam it was good. If any one at all want to see this film the Imax is the place to do it, it looks fantastic something which I don’t think will transfer to a normal cinema screen as well. The 3D footage in the film is ok but doesn’t really add anything extra to the viewing experience.

As for the house two more estate agents came round all arranged and executed by the 'other side' and good news, £80,000! One of them has just sold a house down the road and already has people interested, so come Monday my house should be on the market, which for me is a small stepping stone which starts me on a different path but it leads to where I want to go, Granted it wont be easy but a little hard work never killed anyone!

Don’t know what else to tell you, my life is good, im happy, I have good friends and a loving family so what have I to complain about?
Spending more time on the road at the moment but it always tends to be for a very good reason and now with GPS to keep me company it not so bad (turn left at the lights) and it means no more A-Z! Where would you be with out the technology?

Well its 3am and im starting to tipe rong so its time for bed! Plans for the next few days? Pool, drinks, work, make time for Good Friends???? Should think so and not forgetting FUN!

Night All.

2 Days to relax!

So after a little help from a friend at work I got 2 days off together and I had a plan, The plan involved spending a little time with a 'Good Friend'. I wanted the time to relax and have fun and that's what happened. It true my plans for the two days didn't go to plan and that's what you get if you rely on the weather but what can you do but adapt and over come! So tennis and football on TV and it was well worth it.

What was strange was the two different life's I have (home in Blackburn and Life In Manchester) crossed over and made things better of the life im stuck in but want out, having someone who only knows my Manchester life come to my Home made me for want of a better word happy! And its good to be happy!

Things are good and I feel good, house still slow but should be moving on with things very soon.

X ben

Sat in the garden!

So I did this blog sat in my garden at 10pm enjoying the very end of the day, both cats are in the area and like to attack me every now and then.

its not been easy day to get here over the last few days, started with a training day and a trip to Liverpool, yes I know I was lucky to get out with my car in one piece but didn't go that far south but it was fantastic, think I should keep my reasons for the trip on the QT (for now) And all that after Tom Cruse night with lot of booze and not much sleep.
So getting back home and the problems and work surrounding the place think I hit a bum note, back up early morning to work on the hose with the help from some wonderful people who come round with the sole purpose to help me and back to the lack of help from the 'other side' but I still hold out hope (plz only for the help) but we will see. In to work for the night and back home, bed, sleep and up sanding, painting, trips to the tip.

So still on a bum note and not to happy with the person I have to become to get any help for the 'other side', but the a blinding perception of reality and the chance to look forward to my life to be, not the place where I am but the place I going to be. And I must thank a wonderful idea which I think payed off because I could not stop laughing, I will say no more just enjoy.