Lets get the ball rolling!

Hi all, Lets start with some good news! I have had a serous offer on my house! Can you believe it! I cant! I cant describe how happy this makes me, and other viewing tomorrow! This could be the start of the end in a cretin way and im so so so happy!

Went out Sunday and had a fantastic day, yes day of drinking, lets see how it went

It was really good to meet up with some old friends and chat over old times, and find out how and where all our lives have take us, I seam to be the only one with out kids, which is not to say I have it better but kinda makes me think how difficult things could have been for me now.

So another night out tomorrow hopeful although I have hit a financial wall, so a chat to both banks is on the books as well as the estate agent, selling a house takes time and that’s something I seam to be running out of but that’s not going to stop me from having fun. And I have plans to see the girl friend as again its been a while and im really looking forward to seeing her as would any boy friend, I know over the last few blogs I may have come across as a little down in the dumps but I really feel things are on the up, I still have some way to go but god dam its in the right direction and im determent to make this sale work with every ounce of being. And my mood change is partially down to some one who has really helped me through this time in my life and not with money or help on my house but with my mind and the way to deal with things which im not going in to, please don’t think im so unhinged I’ll just kill every one at work but I think any one going through tough times in there life have ‘issues’ that crop up and most of the time it thing you would never even think could be a problem but saying that I have been told two things recently which stuck in my mind.

1, I didn't land on my feet, I landed on my feet running!

2, For me to feel the way I do I must have wanted this.

And when you friends who have know me for some time tell me they have never seen me so happy this makes me feel a live, even with the carp I cant remember being so truly happy, I mean happy to the core! Something I have started to do is ‘enjoy the moment’ We go through life planning the next minute, hour, day, week, month, year instead of just stopping and enjoying right now, a meal, a drink, company, and with out the joy from such simple things what’s the point of everything? Don’t get me wrong planning for the future is sensible but so is taking time out to enjoy right now.

So it to late and someone has to be up early so good night all

Afternoon of drinking planned

Im going to catch up with some old friends today for a few drinks and soon pool! im looking forward to it as it been a long long time since we all came together.

As for the last few days they have been ok, got load done yesterday in my new role at work which was really good, think after my down i hit an up and feel great and positive, another true example of ups and downs? The day before i helped my mum wit here new laptop, spent 4o mins driving round looking for an unprotected wifi network to download her latest updates (if your that stupid not to protect you wifi network then you should expect some car parked out side you house using you internet) as her dialup was taking forever to download the dam things, i think dialup should be outlawed.

So got to go and get drunk,

love you!

starting to notice a pattern

I want to sell my house and move on with my life, what more can i say! AS i sit here with things going well all i want right now is to move, its like i can see what my life can be but cant get there, all the fun, joy, love, happiness and its all just out of reach, i almost get a glimpse of what can be before i have to come back to the reality of what and where i have to be, i suppose i have to get through the carp times to get to the good but i wish i could just move on and be the person i want to be and where i want to be but hey that’s life!?!? I wish it wasn’t!

Tomorrow is a new day and you never know it may be the day i have been waiting for and i try to keep the sunny side of life going but there seams to be a place where this becomes difficult and that’s where i once called home, but now it just a place, some where i keep my stuff and sleep and have to come back to, notice the word 'have' as if i had the choice i would never come back to but have to day after day.

maybe its my man flu, maybe i have just had enough, maybe im right, maybe im scared but all i know for sure is right now.... well its not a good feeling but tomorrow is a new day and im at work and not home so things will be better.

Night all where ever you maybe!

my trip home vid (about time!)

Good evening all, so after some very hard work with adobe’s video editing software and on help from the forum I managed to get the dam video made of my wonderful trip home from work last Saturday,

Well my deadly illness is still with me and I even thought about checking with the NHS to see if there are any wild, tropical strains of the flu going round as this doesn’t feel good, the other possibility is I have Man Flu, now this isn’t to be confused with any other types of flu and should be taken very seriously as it is life threatening! Ok maybe not but god dam its taken it toll on me! As for the rest of everything else? Its all good, its not easy at work just getting this promotion and being ill as this is the time I put all the effort in and with the next few weeks looking like a baptism of fire I really need to get me game on, got quite a heavy day of planning for my day at work and I may even possibly watch a film seeing I only have 1 free ticket left to last me the next 4 weeks! But it all depends on how I feel as at the moment all I want to do is sleep!

No more new on the house and how ever I try to stay positive it slowly becoming hard, also the fact no matter how much money I save or don’t spent it is impossible for me to earn enough to cover all the bills I have been landed in, time is becoming more and more of an issue but hey in not going to let it get me down as there is nothing I can do about it!

Time to sleep, night all x

So if you followed my last blog you would know I didn't exactly feel like a million dollars last night and with an impending night out planned it was my full intention to go out and enjoy it, can I say my plan work hands down, after what I could describe as a massive intake of caffeine I was more than ready of a fantastic night out and guess what! I did! The only thing that let me down was my voice and god did it hurt to talk.

So it started off with me meeting the girl friend and a good friend of hers so we could make our way to the karaoke bar, It was good to see her as it had been about a week since our last encounter and how ever much I want to keep what I have casual and what you would describe as any new relationship a week for me felt like a long time, epically when I have such a good time when im around her. So we made our way to the bar and despite the venue being not the best place in Manchester I had a fantastic time, I got to meet up and have a great time with some work friends and some old faces I don’t see as often, So after quite a few beers and loads of fun later (pictures supplied) and at the very end of the night we made our way back to hers which included a conversation about which is more painful, child birth or getting kicked in the nuts! We decided one was natural and the other wasn’t so we couldn’t compare but being a man you can imaging where my vote lies, now don’t forget I felt very very rough a few hours before this but I was still going strong at 4am so I think my plan of medication worked a treat. I only managed a few hours sleep before I took both of them out for a full English breakfast and a brew, I don’t even want to get started which is better, Tea or coffee! Come on Coffee drinkers back me up here! After a bus ride in to Manchester I left them both and picked up my stuff from work to make my way home until I decided I didn't want to stop the day there when it comes to the girl in my life so after some confusing text I decided to give them both a lift home, now this did add some mileage to my trip but to spend a little more time chatting it was well worth it. Now im happy which is all I need and the rest is just not worth think about so I as I hope you see had a amazing time, what is a good feeling is this is a two way thing and we plan to meet up aging soon but with work and other plans in life I know this wont be as soon as I would like but hey that’s life!

Back to the boring parts of life but I did manage to get a phone conversation sparked by the resent youtube new stories with her which toped my night off, now as for youtube I think it fantastic and what every you look at in detail will have parts that society wont like and that’s what is happening with youtube now, it funny to hear people say ‘they will shut it down’ Plz people you must be having a laugh, there is no chance and I would protest if they tried as I think it is a wonderful expression and has some amazing films/videos.

Now with my illness and lack of sleep I intend to get in bed before midnight, the last time this happened I think I was still as school but needs must and all that!

I would have put me new video of my breakdown online by now but with the state of the art editing software falling short when it comes to some easy clips im having trouble but I will stick with it and with all the power I have will try and get it on line soon.

Have fun!

Big night out!

So after Friday and the very good news i got i was slightly disappointed not to be going out due to a lack of somewhere to stay so along comes Tuesday and a night out for a friends birthday! So not only do i get to celebrate a friends birthday but the good new a got as well to but to top it all of i get to see the girl im seeing! it been about a week sine our paths last crossed so as you can imagine im quite excited and would even say giddy about tonight, i got up this morning and felt like crap and it got worse all day, now i admit the best thing for me would be to go home get in bed and get some rest but if you think thats my plans for to night you sadly mistaken, there is no chance in hell im going to miss to night. So Coffee, Red Bull and flu tablets should set me of on the right foot to stay alive for to night, i say stay alive as thats the only thing that would stop me from going out, when i think about it i think my friend wouldnt mind if i called a sicky for her party and there will be plenty of time for me the celebrate my new job but there is no chance i would miss a night out with you know who! Mind over matter! Now the question is can i last the night? Well i hope to but im sure feeling the way i do right now i expect to hit a few bumps in the road but bring it on!

I look forward to reading this blog entry tomorrow (day off thank god) to see if my passion is misplaced and foolish or my body can make me proud and take me all the way!

Stay tuned for the day after report!

to fix or not to fix, that is the question!

So after a late night i had the job of fixing my car today, Now to do this i was going to need the parts and thankfully there are some local shops that could possibly have what i needed, so the nest problem how to get there! Now after doing some searching on google i found this thing where u put one foot in front of the other, shift you weight and move the other foot past the other one and so on and so forth, they call it 'walking'. What a strange and new fangled way of getting round, so always up for new and exciting things i thought i would give it a try and what do you know it works, granted it not as fast as a car and you dont get any luxury that you would normal take for granted from driving but it dose get you where you need to be going. So after mastering this new way to trivial i got the parts i needed and spend an hour or so fitting them, and now for the moment of truth! Would the dam thing start as i did use the very last bit of power to keep my stereo going sat on the side of the road last night, Keys in, lights came on, and hay presto! it started and like nothing had been wrong with it! So i was more than happy but .....

Karma strikes again, for some reason my tinternet/phone line is not working, just take a deep breath and remember these things are sent to try us! i think the line is dead so im hoping there is a problem with the exchange and not a unpaid bill! So for the smart one's who are wondering how can he write his blog with out the use of the internet? Well thats all thanks to the bloke across the street who with his complete lack of router knowledge has left there router open! Now i have tried to explain to them about there open network but he keeps telling me he has a firewall, Im trying to find a stupid stick to beat him with but no luck so far. He started to park in front of me drive way a while ago so i set his router up so he could only connect to the internet for 60secods before he was disconnected, took him 2 weeks to get the message and what do you know! He no longer dose it! You may think this is harsh but it only using my knowledge to get my point across!

So in a nut shell car works, internet doesn’t! i think god my be sat up stairs thinking this bloke is in to good of a mood, lets change that! well he can give it a go but i hate to say (touch wood) he's going to have to try dam hard!

what a night!

so lets get things started, i got the job! Now i feel this is just what i need at this time in my life but this must be true proof of karma cas tonight on the way home i broke down!

The belt to me alternator stopped causing me to lose power and with out power i wasn’t gong any where but what a fun night! the bloke who picked me up was called Gaz and what a top bloke, i happened to be taking video for my next short film and he was more that happy to help with helping me get some good footage (video coming soon!) he also had a beer in his truck! i had a fantastic night even tho my car wasn’t working, it was 2 am before i got home and i have to spend the day tomorrow fixing my car. You cant plan night like this!

still editing video's

V2 of the night out, going to start with bule/green screen soon! not as easy as i thought!

The strat of a new day and all hale the bloggers

So if you have read my last blog you will know that my mood last night want best, not because of a crap day or night as i has lots of fun and really enjoyed spending time out and about but just the situation im in made me feel crap, so after i published my blog i had a quick read and noticed i had started to get comments from fellow bloggers! That was a good feeling so this blog is dedicated to them, its strange how it can be the smallest thing which can change your mood or out look on life

So
yo4rker,
onfoyou,
dronbyfot,
em0,
robinshood,
oldtownboys,
echo11,
bestusedcarrs,
best4chance and
cinemec

THANKYOU!

I hope you can be happy that your comments changed my mood for the good and today is a good day and i feel fantastic!

Snakes on plane!

Tonight i got to watch Snakes on plane! Trekked over to Switch Island over near Liverpool to with it with the Girl Friend (ok i did just call her Girl friend but i haven’t got the time to go in to that one right now) and i really enjoyed it, don’t get me wrong i don’t think it will be going in my top 10 films but still it was good, some very funny bit in the film and i did jump a few times but who can blame me there were fucking loads of snakes, big ones little ones and all with intent to kill kill kill! I think if they could have got away with it they would have called it 'Mother fucking snakes on a mother fucking plane'. Working all the hours god sends and with the clash of our lives it was good to spend some time with you know who! Got some food before the movie and had a good chat, i should have bought flowers! You know with the food and a movie it felt like a date you would buy flowers, next time (not to self sun flowers are the ones to buy)
I find it quite funny as i added an extra 70 miles to my usual trip to and from work with going over to Liverpool but it didn’t even make a difference to me, i know we all know why but im still finding out little things which i haven’t even thought about all this time, one of the draw backs of having some distance between us it the lack of time and a place where we can chill together, im not going on about the stuff that you would think, ok well may be that as well but i think it would make the time we do get allow more valuable its just a shame it few and far between.
But that should change in the future but i do have the feeling at the moment that this time will never come, after talking about moving to Manchester tonight i would quite happily sell my house for 65.000 which is 10.000 under the asking price, i know what some of you may think but you are not the ones living here with all the changes you would like to make with your life’s waiting for something which may not be round the corner. So give me your thoughts and vote now!
I would give anything right this very moment to sell my house, i know i have been up beet about it but right now i feel really really crap, i know about the up and down times but i would do any thing! Its a really shit feeling when all i want to do is get on with the rest of my life, i am to a cretin degree but..............................i don’t know..........................to be honest i could just walk away, the Ex has told me she would sort things out but do you blame me for not having the trust i used to have? Ups and Downs! Think im going to nock the price down!

Its good to talk!

So think back, think back to the time you started to see the person you are seeing right now, can you remember the 1st big phone conversation you had? The thing about phone conversations is you need to keep it going, you don’t want to have the silences where you are stuck for things to say. So after roughly 8 weeks of getting to know the girl im seeing and a few attempts at the phone conversation thing but missed calls or busy at work to came to the night where i would crash and burn or come out soaring! So after getting home last night i gave her a call and 2 hours later got off the phone! 2 HOURS would count as a success in my book, i can understand that this may sound a little odd but hay i can do odd! Now it didn’t feel like 2 hours and i was pleasantly surprised when my phone told me how long i had been chatting, now part of this conversation was a planning what we could get up to tomorrow night, and the plan would be the cinema, so after work im going to shoot over to the wonderful place of Magull and have a visit to the Odeon at switch island, Now for most people vesting the cinema is an ordinary experience but when you have been a projectionist you can easily sit there are pick holes in screens, sound, presentation, lighting, print conditions, seating, customer service, focusing and the list goes on but i don’t think this is what im going to be thinking about so i look forward the evening.

One thing which i did do today is buy a suit, now with the money situation im in you would expect buying suit's would be last on my list but with a job interview coming up at work i needed a suit that would fit me as my old has got to big or i have got smaller, humm not sure which one! But this one fits perfectly, so to get my moneys worth I need a wedding to go to!

So early night planned so im on form tomorrow night, So Night all
x

YouTube is great

After spending some more time searching youtube i found some videos i thought i would share.







hope you like!