Ups and downs

 

Its been an odd week, a busy week but it would seem a good week. To start I had my review this week along with the usual meetings and some training which had been planned for some time so there were a lot of early mornings, I don't mind some but it just got very hard to get up for the 4^th time that week at 7am which didn't make my mood any better that week.

As for my review looking back it went really well, I walked out of it and I didn't feel too good and it just seemed no matter how much hard work I put in or how many changes I had made it didn't make a difference (and I chipped my tooth on the same day) but looking back at it there were no bad points, at all. Normally with any review there would be something that you can improve on, no matter how small and this is the time it would be mentioned but nothing, I had glowing review on all areas of what I have to do. I did ask for more money as you should expect and didn't get it this time but with a view that in 6 months it would be looked at very seriously which is something to work for I suppose. Another part of my review which was interesting was the amount of things taken out, there must be 5 or 6 things that are no longer on their which was at the time a little strange but now welcome.

As for the rest of the week it was more work than life, think we all have some weeks like this. As you may have seen started to use the now word – blogger thing, its good but you cant post images which needs to be looked at, I'm sure I can just need to spend some time working it out and you can't put the labels at the bottom.

Even though it may have looked like a normal week for some reason I felt down, I don't think it is just one thing but lots of small things just building up to make my mood a down one, it was stupid as if I sat there and looked at what was making my feel down it was not worth worrying about. Stupid!

Word Blogger

I have just found out that Office word can be set up for blogger! So thought I would try it out and see what happens.

 

Humm maybe an image

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i should not be here

Back at work and I should not be here, had to cover a shift that needed covering till 11pm. I did have a plan for tonight and it would have taken me out to watch a friends band play at the Night and Day, they were playing for some sort of contest and the prize was to get to play at a festival. It would have been nice as it has been some time since I had see this group of friends and I like there band. So anyway at work and here till 11pm, sure I mentioned that but it worth mentioning again, during the time I get free and this amounts to not a lot of time I pop out side for a bit of fresh air as being in one room for 12 hours it get a little stuffy, so after one of my trips outside I come back up just to find someone has been sick outside my door! Not nice and even now it has been cleaned away the smell give me that reminder. You know it’s not the fact its 12 hours in one booth or the fact its till 11pm but it’s just a little shit that it had to happen on a night I had something nice to do.

Anyway rant over let’s talk good things, I'm going to Budapest! Yep and I can’t wait, well I don’t have to wait as I go in the 28^th of this month. I'm only going for 3 nights but I'm sure I will have enough time to get everything done I would like to do, it a little birthday present off my wonderful girl friend.

Birthday! I will be 28 this time round but not feeling like 28, I think they are all just numbers and you are as old as you feel, my wonderful girl friend is only 22 so there is roughly 6 years difference but you would not even know, I don’t ever see it. So she is older than her age or I'm younger, well they do say girls are more mature than boys.

One thing I would like for my birthday is a new watch, being a projectionist time is very important and the right time is more important so knowing this I got a Kinetic watch never needing batteries ever and for the last 9 years it has done me well until about 2 months ago and the time would be wrong when I got out of bed, once the capacitor starts to go that's it as it no longer has enough charge to get through the night, but it has got worse, if I stop for more than 30 mins (even typing) it just stops until I start to move again. You never know I may get a new one someday, lets hope.

So normal day to day, got up at 6am and got in for 7 as had a topshop conference, quite a simple event with nothing that was going to keep me entertained until I found out that the Richard and Judy show were doing some filming for their Film Club (I think) and as shit roles down hill and my boss didn’t want to get his face on camera I was up front and centre and got my little face on camera. Now before I quit my job and start the climb to fame this would not be the first time I would have been on camera. The ‘How it works’ TV show decide to cover projection and cinemas and I was the projectionist in that, there must have been hours of filming and doing the same thing over and over again just to watch it on TV and there was nothing of me! I'm thinking this filming may just go the same way.

I finished my Shane Meadows films with 247 last night, its a black and white film (I remember the mess to used to make of the projectors when I ran it) and like most of his films they are set around the north/midlands in poor areas. This one is set around a man trying to get a boxing club set up in a bid to reduce crime and to re kindle his love of the sport and what he had done at that age, so he invites the local Yobs and get this 2 groups of people who don’t like each other too much to work together. I have to say it is a good film and is what I have come to expect from Shane Meadows, but with this expect a film that will have its serous bits and you may not walk out after watching it feeling to happy but I would not expect anything else from this director.

Games

I have always like computer games, from first getting doom on my dads 486 DX2 and spending days just trying to get the games to load by going through what was loading up and removing things you didn’t need. The first time a played another person was doom 2 but we had to sit next to each other as internet gaming was not around. But getting older and getting my own computer with dial up internet saw the first big online game and that would be and add on to half lift which was Counter Strike and seeing at was only on dial up it still worked quite well (avg ping was about 300/400!).

Now this was a fantastic game, for the first time you could play other people which was a nice change from the computer as no matter how hard it would try would come predictable. Playing on line you would have a small community and you would know the people you were playing with and you would connect to the same servers. Now for me the games continued from there like, battlefield (1, 1942, 2, 2142) Quake, Medal of honour, command and conquer just to name a few. There have been other just as good online games and even the American Army developed a game for free and it was a good one (think if you win big you had to enrol in the Army) but as you may see from the games I play it tends to be more shooting. Now the next big games would be the Call of Duty saga, we have seen 1 2 and 3 and now with the 4^th one out it was the last game I got and I have to say they have got better and better every time and the 4^th is amazing. The game (not on line) is not very big and after 6 hours of playing it was done but this is nothing to the amount of fun you can have online, I can play it for hours and really enjoy it, I know that Echo11 son plays it and so dose Brain Splat and many other no bloggers.

I'm sure I have been over this point before but the game industry is huge but I feel it is not seen this way. They make films out of games just like books, they make games out of films and the amount of money we will spend on games it huge. Now with broadband in every home and the gaming world coming closer due to the high speeds of the internet meaning you can play someone around the world (pings now down to 20/30) without problem.

For me the next big thing will be cross platform gaming, all pc users, xbox and ps3 will be able to play the same game with or against each other online. But with big and better games has to come big and better computers, to give you some example my first computer had a 800mhz processor, 128mb RAM and 40GB hard drive. No extra graphics card or sound card and all on a 14inch monitor. Now I have a 4600mhz Duel core (2 processors in 1) 3GB Ram (24x more) and 960GB hard drives and a 22inch LCD monitor and a 512 DDR3 Graphics card and this is what I would class as a normal home users computer. The good thing about technology always moving on is after a few months you can pick up good kit for half the price as the new stuff but you will never be cutting edge.

Music

I am a lover of music, I always have been but a little like football its not something I fill my life with. I support Blackburn rovers but I could not tell you 5 players for the team and this is like music. My mind works in this way, if I like it a listen to it not matter who it is or what they have done in the past be it bad or good.

So 27 years of age and I'm only just getting in to Bands like Lead Zeppelin (much to Cinemec’s disgust) and I find it very interesting having Thom Yorke’s The Eraser album that he is in Radiohead. I know there are going to be some people out there who would not be happy with comments like this but I do think I have a good music collection, for example at the moment as well as Thom Yorke I have both Interpol albums on the go with the Physical graffiti (Lead Zeppelin) album. Also started on Piccadilly Records top 10 albums

1 - LCD Soundsystem : Sound Of Silver

2 - Panda Bear : Person Pitch

3 - Wilco : Sky Blue Sky

4 - Wooden Shjips : Wooden Shjips

5 - Speck Mountain : Summer Above

6 - The Shins : Wincing The Night Away

7 - Ryan Adams : Easy Tiger

8 - Kings Of Leon : Because Of The Times

9 - Super Furry Animals : Hey Venus

10 - !!! (Chk Chk Chk) : Myth Takes

And I would like to point out a little something I believe, you say you like music, you say you like a band. Have you been to see them? Its true anyone can sit there at home or on the way to work and say they are a fan of a band or artist but I would say you need to see them live! Not this can’t be done with some I admit, money, touring dates or even if they are still alive but there will be someone out there who you like and will be paying at a venue near you soon.

Dam tree's

I did it, yes I got through all of Christmas without seeing one of those stupid upside down trees, that's was until I was walking home last night and just as I passed through the northern quarter I spotted one. Sorry still don’t get it, still think it looks stupid and still think the people who would buy something like this are trying too hard to be at the front of fashion or have something wrong with them. I am sorry if you have one and each to their own but come on, its just plain stupid.

short film

Found this online the other day, Prey Alone. well worth a watch

Prey Alone

it was Christmas

So after finishing work I set off down the motorway to get over to my dads which involved going over Snake pass which is not the nicest road in the uk, as I started to make my way up the start of snake pass I spotted a bloke hitch hiking. Now it was pitch black and teaming down with rain, not a nice evening to be out. So I pulled over and asked who he was and where he was going, I may never have picked up a hitch hiker before but I don’t care and we are doing it my way, so I was waiting for any answer that would have pointed out to me that he was some killer or something. But he was just a homeless bloke and was trying to get over to Sheffield, now think its Christmas eve at about 8:30, it dark and raining and it very cold, if you were in that position how much would you have been wanted to be picked up? So I did and we set off over snake pass, so after chatting I found out his name was Dan and he has been homeless for 8 years or so, he came from Manchester but has only been back there recently, he has been travailing around the uk. He has a family but has not contacted them for years and expected they had stopped looking. I have to say he was such a nice bloke, I real down to earth person. This also made me value what I had this Christmas. After dropping him of only a few miles from Sheffield I tried to give him a little money, nothing too much just the change I had on me but he dint want any which I respected. After dropping him ff I did thin about trying to find out where his family are and just letting them know I saw him and he is ok, I must admit I don’t think a phone call however short would have been that hard to do a Christmas eve.

So down to the exciting bit of Christmas and that would be what you get, lets be honest we all like to see friends and family but you cant say the gifts just don’t matter, I think I did very well this year, the big one which I'm really going to look forward to would be the track day down at Silverstone, I get to drive a F3 car round the track for the day, Cool. I also got a nice new bag for my laptop, which is perfect when in just going to and from work. I have a few more gifts which I love but we may be here for some time if I talk about all of them.

Well that's the xmas thing done for another year and sitting on the end of this festive time I feel like its been a wonderful time even if I thought it was going to be just a normal day, even with all the driving and having to run around at speed it was a very good Christmas.

it was the night before christmas and im at work

So here I am working till 9 ish on Christmas eve, then I have got a bit of a drive before I get to relax and enjoy half a day before I'm back in the car for a few more hours. This is what I lave about Christmas, the things you will do just to make sure you get round and see your family and friends on this one day of the year without fail. It would have been a bit easier if I had some of the evening free tonight but its not like I'm driving to Scotland. Not Christmas day is a bit of a rush as I have 2 parents to get round and then a lovely girl friend and as anyone would expect they all don’t live on the same street and it will take more than an hour to get to each one so there will be a large part of Christmas day in the car but I have planned! Got an awesome playlist to go, going to keep warm, got my headset if I want to get in to radio competition, what else can you do if you’re on your own in the car?

But right now I have about an hour before i can get out of work and get back to the flat, get everything in the car and get on my merry way with my fingers crossed that the roads are clear, last year I should have turned back when I started to pass cars on their roofs but I managed to get through, just. So back to the flat and get gone. Even tho I'm looking forward to the next few days there is a small part of me which would be just as happy to get back to the flat, crack open a bottle of wine and enjoy what Christmas eve tv has to offer, may be its the chance to enjoy the time for myself but that's not an option and the road is.

I did get all my xmas shopping done in one day and the only gift I had planned and ordered from Amnesty international didn’t come! The only one planned and not just picked up as I walk around in town looking at everything. I could have done without that day but I did go ready for shopping so close to the weekend, so rap/rock angry music on the mp3 player and I ploughed through town only giving way to old people and prams. Don’t get me wrong I was not just hitting people I was walking around like I normal do but when you have a line of people coming at you with no gap for you to walk through I was quite happy to make my own. (I do come across as a rude person don’t I?)

Well 34 mins and another 10 on that and I'm out of work, until Friday but that's just half a day or so.

Well all I can hope is you all have the Christmas you want, if its driving to see everyone or you have that bottle of wine I was talking about I just hope its a good one.

Hey! Wasn’t that my idea?

Hey! Wasn’t that my idea?

Hallo blogger from all over the world, how are you today? I hope well.

So one Christmas party, early start at work the day after, one big Short film festival later and I find myself very tired and ready to enjoy my 3 days off.

I like staff Christmas parties as I find it hard to get round and say hi to everyone at work as normally I have a lot to do so when the parties come along I like it, get to do some chatting and drinking and this party was no exception. There seemed to be a lot of throughing up going on around the place and I didn’t get any free drinks as I have another party to go to on the 11^th. The bad bit of it all was the fact I had to get up at 7am the following morning and that did not feel too good at all. The main reason I had to be in work at that time was we were doing a dry run for the short film festival we were holding at work, everyone who works for the company could make a short film and submit it with a chance of going to Hollywood! There were some set thing that had to in there and some things which were not allowed but. So today was the main event and what a hard day, it all went really well and looked fantastic and I know it was down to the hard work myself and my boss put in, I did get a massive bottle of Champaign for the work I put in today which made it worthwhile, not the booze but the token. But as I was just finishing off a few jobs got taking to one of the people I work with and he ask if I was pissed off, I was not too sure what he was on about until he reminded me of a conversation about a year ago, the company wanted more ideas of what we all could do for fun and my idea......what for it.........yes was a short film festival as most people who work in the industry I work in like films and that’s why they are there. The cheek!

i type them ,just need to post them

Went to the Apollo last weekend to watch The Hives play, well it was not the thing that caught my eye as it was Dan Sartain who was supporting the Hives and he is very good. He played well but I think his guitar could have done with being turned up a little. The Hives were very good and the front man was fantastic. The only thing I did like about the night apart from one of the support acts keyboard player turning in to a spitter was the no re-admittance rule so once you were in that’s it for the night, not to good if you want a cig at any point, Smoker discrimination? I wish. Apart from that its been all work, topping out at 55 hours this week and it was a hard6 day week but things went well so tired but happy, will be more happy when I get to claim my hours back.
So me and my flat mate have a new bet, Kane and Lynch has just been released for most consoles and he has just got it for his nice new PS3, I'm going to get it for my PC and we are going to have a race to see who can finish it the fastest, now I think I have a good chance as not only do I have a few more years of gaming under my belt but I think the controls for such a game are easier on a PC the a controller. So all I need now is the game and time to play it, girl friends don’t like it when all you do is play computer games. This is something that I have started to notice about games and that’s how much people are starting to notice what big business they are, seeing the advert for Kane and Lynch it looks like a trailer for a film, the latest episode of Chuck from the USA shows the hype around Call of Duty 4. I think from a normal society the people who read books or more accepted than the people who play games for recreation.
Its Christmas part tonight, let’s see what work has to offer in the way of Xmas cheer this year as last year was a very good night in so many ways, I don’t think this night will be as big as last year but lets hope the less they spend on venue the more they spend on drinks. One down point is the fact I have to be back In a 8am the following morning, I would have been out last night if it was not for the fact I had to be in a 7am for an event. Rubbish!

i dont feel too good

So my friend got back from a long trip the Asia yesterday so we had a night of drinks planned to catch up and what not. Now getting older you would think that you get wiser when it come to the old drink or two, you know like have something good to eat and don’t go out for a night of drinking when you have only had a sandwich for the entire day, I wish I had followed the rule. So only after a few hours drinking and may I point out a few hours of heavy drinking I was not the best and then started to feel not too good. So I gave the international recognised look to my girl friend that I wanted to go and up she was saying good bye and covering me by saying she had to at work the following day (which she did and is right now). So the walk back was only 10mins but my situation worsened and I didn’t feel well at all and I was quickly put in bed with pain killers, water and a bowl just in case.
I like to think I trust a lot of people but trust is not a simple as black and white, I feel there are so many types of trust for many different aspects of your life but when you have someone who you trust for every aspect of your life its a wonderful feeling, no matter how stupid you are or look or what secrets you have or the things you want to keep from some people you know as you want to have a good appearance its not very often in life someone comes along and you can open up your heart and soul and feel safe at the same time. I think we all want to feel safe in some way not matter how old you are.