So with the afternoon off and the morning spent cleaning my house I decided to take a trip out, not any trip out but a trip back to Liverpool, Know i know what most people think when you say the word 'Liverpool' and i must admit i would have been one of those people, you think of burn out cars sat on bricks, people trying to mug you every corner but how wrong could you be.

I ended up spending a fantastic day sat on the banks of the Leeds to Liverpool Cannel (strangely enough the same cannel that passes my house in Blackburn) so I thought I would take a photo and let you judge the view for your self.

But all this adventure had to come to an end and back in to work and thank God for GPS, i need to know where in going and that’s it, GPS dose all the work, no more getting lost not even knowing which way north is, its fantastic. so hour or so later and in work till 12pm (back at 9am or so) and i hope to the gods of 'fun' i get to go out tomorrow night

hottest day of the year?

How would I know sat in a room with no windows and air conditioning, I understand if you are sat in the sun this may sound appealing but trust me I would change places with you in a hart beat! Anyone? No didn’t think so.

So after a few drinks in the northern quarter of Manchester I was walking back from the train station to my house and I had totally forgot about the 'for sale sign' out side my house. Got to the end of my street and I was sooooooo happy, just to see the dam thing out side my house made my day, so much I ran up (drunk by the way) and gave it a big hug! Thinking about it know it shows my underlying feeling about this whole thing, Odd it took a wooden sign, mind you 'Stop! Hammer time' was just i sign and that made me smile for a while!

Manchester was a good night out, my very good looking friend (its a girl before you all start) gave me some very good advice which helped me in the position i now face. By position I mean the part of my life which involves Girls! or Girl would be more accrete. Being in the position i am now im not looking for ................ hummm mind blank ............. I am looking for something but not what I had and I think I have found something which makes me happy, i have no idea where it is going, I have fun and I feel things i have not felt for a long time. But this is only a part of the good feelings and i intend to keep them all coming.

I love kopparberg, the best thing to come out of Sweden (ok porn as well)
It has to have alcohol in it as there is a non alcoholic version out there (hum not sure there is a point but that comes from a drinker so it not aimed at me......arr......)
But it is a good drink, never tried cider before as i do tend to think of homeless people asking for change with a bottle of cider in one hand but i take it all back, it great. It dose seam to be involved with making me more relaxed and switched off the decision making department of my brain but i think 'drink' in general has the same affect.

You can get Kopparberg from all good Weather Spoons pubs (well in Manchester) and I think Ikea!

Well even though I have another hour sat at work I have to go, spent 40 mins lead in my garden last night at 1am, FANTASTIC! that’s my advice for to day, get home at night lie down and just look up, I don’t think we all look up enough, take in the sky and stars which i plan to do when home.

House for sale!!!!!

All i need is someone to buy it.

To much time on my hands?

After problems at work which i wont go in to i put thease 2 video's to gether, there are only slight changes to each one. hope you like it fella's.

So to start this tale of fun set us of at a night out, good night and fun time's got to stay at a friends which was handy after being called in to work to help with problems the following morning meant I only had to stagger a shot distance before I was at work. After a few house later I could start the reminder of my 3 days off, YES that’s right 3 days off and no I didn’t spoon to get it!

Monday comes around and it 'small stepping stone time' as my house was put on the market! This is a good thing but dose come with its work load! But I have the motivation to get on with it and see it through to the end.
Through all this im determined not to become petty about the time in my life now and make this transition an easy one for both people involved, I don’t want to regret my past or the time in my life now and like Yoda said hate leads to anger, anger leads to pain, pain leads to suffering ....................................... you know the rest...................................
But I don’t think is the same for both sides, the phrase 'I have been advised not to do that' or 'I don’t live there' after the lack of help doesn’t make we want to be not as nice about it but Yoda knows best.

So a quite drink with a friend to celebrate my house is now on the market is the plan for Tuesday night, nothing to big and back home for midnight (last train not because my carriage turn’s back in to a pumpkin) but before that some more work on the house.

I have had a few days of trying times and there seams to be some people who can pull me out of it but at the moment there is one who brings more, not quite sure how to describe it but it’s a good feeling but with out the help from my friends and family I wouldn’t be the person I am now to enjoy it, I know that’s I bit heavy to digest.

On my travels I fond this sine which made my giggle for some time, hope you like it.

During the make up of the right eye I got a little footage and decided to put togetter a video, not the best one I have done but I still like it.

Superman Returns

Just got home from a long day, start work at 10am, spend all day working and get out at 2am but I did get to watch Superman Returns in the Imax and god dam it was good. If any one at all want to see this film the Imax is the place to do it, it looks fantastic something which I don’t think will transfer to a normal cinema screen as well. The 3D footage in the film is ok but doesn’t really add anything extra to the viewing experience.

As for the house two more estate agents came round all arranged and executed by the 'other side' and good news, £80,000! One of them has just sold a house down the road and already has people interested, so come Monday my house should be on the market, which for me is a small stepping stone which starts me on a different path but it leads to where I want to go, Granted it wont be easy but a little hard work never killed anyone!

Don’t know what else to tell you, my life is good, im happy, I have good friends and a loving family so what have I to complain about?
Spending more time on the road at the moment but it always tends to be for a very good reason and now with GPS to keep me company it not so bad (turn left at the lights) and it means no more A-Z! Where would you be with out the technology?

Well its 3am and im starting to tipe rong so its time for bed! Plans for the next few days? Pool, drinks, work, make time for Good Friends???? Should think so and not forgetting FUN!

Night All.

2 Days to relax!

So after a little help from a friend at work I got 2 days off together and I had a plan, The plan involved spending a little time with a 'Good Friend'. I wanted the time to relax and have fun and that's what happened. It true my plans for the two days didn't go to plan and that's what you get if you rely on the weather but what can you do but adapt and over come! So tennis and football on TV and it was well worth it.

What was strange was the two different life's I have (home in Blackburn and Life In Manchester) crossed over and made things better of the life im stuck in but want out, having someone who only knows my Manchester life come to my Home made me for want of a better word happy! And its good to be happy!

Things are good and I feel good, house still slow but should be moving on with things very soon.

X ben

Sat in the garden!

So I did this blog sat in my garden at 10pm enjoying the very end of the day, both cats are in the area and like to attack me every now and then.

its not been easy day to get here over the last few days, started with a training day and a trip to Liverpool, yes I know I was lucky to get out with my car in one piece but didn't go that far south but it was fantastic, think I should keep my reasons for the trip on the QT (for now) And all that after Tom Cruse night with lot of booze and not much sleep.
So getting back home and the problems and work surrounding the place think I hit a bum note, back up early morning to work on the hose with the help from some wonderful people who come round with the sole purpose to help me and back to the lack of help from the 'other side' but I still hold out hope (plz only for the help) but we will see. In to work for the night and back home, bed, sleep and up sanding, painting, trips to the tip.

So still on a bum note and not to happy with the person I have to become to get any help for the 'other side', but the a blinding perception of reality and the chance to look forward to my life to be, not the place where I am but the place I going to be. And I must thank a wonderful idea which I think payed off because I could not stop laughing, I will say no more just enjoy.

When is a date a date?

My week started with a wonderful trip planned to Amsterdam for 2 days and Monday was the day we went, so when I found out my passport was out of date (yes I know!) the trip was off, the money I can stand to lose but to let down a friend is not something I will let go until I have made it up. But with my frame of mind at the moment its about looking for the good in each and ever situation how ever hard. And this one, well two are

1. I got my car back! yes that’s the end of the car update (arrr) but I now have it back with a new rear axle pin and bearings, new front ball join, new cam belt + rollers and a new alternator wheel and belt and its great (£300 all in), so great I took it to work knowing it was going to cost me about £18 to get it off the car park as I was having a night out which brings me on to number 2.

2. I know another night out but this one was different, a few drinks in town then off to a open mic night to watch some amazing artists (one girl in particular). But this time it was about the person I was spending the time with which made the night one to remember.


So with one hand he takes and with the other he gives!

So my house is coming on well thx to my mum and sister, they have been here again painting and decorating and it looks good. each time I come home its not easy to see everything coming together but slowly it is which is a good feeling, thx to the people who have help this become what it is and close to my goal.

Well apart from watching some good films and finding new and old music to add to my world things are still good! sometimes Great!

Night out number 4?11? hummm

Yep out again, leaving drinks for a friend but not the only reason I was there. Good night, got chatting to some people how I rarely get time to chat to and have a fantastic time in the process.
The night seamed to get better and better which was a good thing.

And now for the big news CAR UPDATE

I now have my car back, after spending the last week at a garage I now have it back all for one day before I drop it back off to get the cam belt done, there are a few bits to get done but its good to have it back, Stay tuned for the final price!

Sleep

I would like to tell you all about the work done on my house and the evaluation and the help and support from my friends and family and the fantastic time I'm having when you don't include the 'house issue' but im to god dam tired,

Night

Night out anyone?

The run of nights out started with Saturday night. Out on the town for a few friendly drinks and a meal, meant some new people and had some fun. Back to a friends flat (thx again) and up in to work all day Saturday (and that's 11 hours of you 9-5 people) and then out for another meal and 1 drink (Driving!) and not tucked in bed till 3am. Back to work at 8:30 but only until 4 then home to drop of my car at a garage (sounds like a car update coming)

So you would think that would be enough for fun but there was something calling me back for one more night out, I will admit it wasn't the thought

One of the pubs
of another night out as I could have done with the rest but more the thought of the people I would be spending it with, because my car is in the garage I would have to get the train in and back home all for 3 hours out and then back to work in the morning. The thought of this wasn't good but I though the night would be worth it and I went out, Im a smart boy as I did have a fantastic night out and got to stay at a good friends for a relay fantastic night sleep. You know when you have had a good night sleep when you could spend the rest of the day in bed, so peaceful.
Back to work (again!) via bus, Yes bus! Me! Felt like a day out!

Its funny how I can be having so much fun but have all the problems of life still there, I cant change things I cant change so why should I worry but its not just that, im having fun and really enjoying my self and the crap part is selling the house but that's down to time, hard work and help. Not out tonigh but not to lack of invitation but the lack of energy and the will to go home, its a shame as i know i would have had fun. anothday.

Car update coming soon.

Night !