starting to notice a pattern

I want to sell my house and move on with my life, what more can i say! AS i sit here with things going well all i want right now is to move, its like i can see what my life can be but cant get there, all the fun, joy, love, happiness and its all just out of reach, i almost get a glimpse of what can be before i have to come back to the reality of what and where i have to be, i suppose i have to get through the carp times to get to the good but i wish i could just move on and be the person i want to be and where i want to be but hey that’s life!?!? I wish it wasn’t!

Tomorrow is a new day and you never know it may be the day i have been waiting for and i try to keep the sunny side of life going but there seams to be a place where this becomes difficult and that’s where i once called home, but now it just a place, some where i keep my stuff and sleep and have to come back to, notice the word 'have' as if i had the choice i would never come back to but have to day after day.

maybe its my man flu, maybe i have just had enough, maybe im right, maybe im scared but all i know for sure is right now.... well its not a good feeling but tomorrow is a new day and im at work and not home so things will be better.

Night all where ever you maybe!

my trip home vid (about time!)

Good evening all, so after some very hard work with adobe’s video editing software and on help from the forum I managed to get the dam video made of my wonderful trip home from work last Saturday,

Well my deadly illness is still with me and I even thought about checking with the NHS to see if there are any wild, tropical strains of the flu going round as this doesn’t feel good, the other possibility is I have Man Flu, now this isn’t to be confused with any other types of flu and should be taken very seriously as it is life threatening! Ok maybe not but god dam its taken it toll on me! As for the rest of everything else? Its all good, its not easy at work just getting this promotion and being ill as this is the time I put all the effort in and with the next few weeks looking like a baptism of fire I really need to get me game on, got quite a heavy day of planning for my day at work and I may even possibly watch a film seeing I only have 1 free ticket left to last me the next 4 weeks! But it all depends on how I feel as at the moment all I want to do is sleep!

No more new on the house and how ever I try to stay positive it slowly becoming hard, also the fact no matter how much money I save or don’t spent it is impossible for me to earn enough to cover all the bills I have been landed in, time is becoming more and more of an issue but hey in not going to let it get me down as there is nothing I can do about it!

Time to sleep, night all x

So if you followed my last blog you would know I didn't exactly feel like a million dollars last night and with an impending night out planned it was my full intention to go out and enjoy it, can I say my plan work hands down, after what I could describe as a massive intake of caffeine I was more than ready of a fantastic night out and guess what! I did! The only thing that let me down was my voice and god did it hurt to talk.

So it started off with me meeting the girl friend and a good friend of hers so we could make our way to the karaoke bar, It was good to see her as it had been about a week since our last encounter and how ever much I want to keep what I have casual and what you would describe as any new relationship a week for me felt like a long time, epically when I have such a good time when im around her. So we made our way to the bar and despite the venue being not the best place in Manchester I had a fantastic time, I got to meet up and have a great time with some work friends and some old faces I don’t see as often, So after quite a few beers and loads of fun later (pictures supplied) and at the very end of the night we made our way back to hers which included a conversation about which is more painful, child birth or getting kicked in the nuts! We decided one was natural and the other wasn’t so we couldn’t compare but being a man you can imaging where my vote lies, now don’t forget I felt very very rough a few hours before this but I was still going strong at 4am so I think my plan of medication worked a treat. I only managed a few hours sleep before I took both of them out for a full English breakfast and a brew, I don’t even want to get started which is better, Tea or coffee! Come on Coffee drinkers back me up here! After a bus ride in to Manchester I left them both and picked up my stuff from work to make my way home until I decided I didn't want to stop the day there when it comes to the girl in my life so after some confusing text I decided to give them both a lift home, now this did add some mileage to my trip but to spend a little more time chatting it was well worth it. Now im happy which is all I need and the rest is just not worth think about so I as I hope you see had a amazing time, what is a good feeling is this is a two way thing and we plan to meet up aging soon but with work and other plans in life I know this wont be as soon as I would like but hey that’s life!

Back to the boring parts of life but I did manage to get a phone conversation sparked by the resent youtube new stories with her which toped my night off, now as for youtube I think it fantastic and what every you look at in detail will have parts that society wont like and that’s what is happening with youtube now, it funny to hear people say ‘they will shut it down’ Plz people you must be having a laugh, there is no chance and I would protest if they tried as I think it is a wonderful expression and has some amazing films/videos.

Now with my illness and lack of sleep I intend to get in bed before midnight, the last time this happened I think I was still as school but needs must and all that!

I would have put me new video of my breakdown online by now but with the state of the art editing software falling short when it comes to some easy clips im having trouble but I will stick with it and with all the power I have will try and get it on line soon.

Have fun!

Big night out!

So after Friday and the very good news i got i was slightly disappointed not to be going out due to a lack of somewhere to stay so along comes Tuesday and a night out for a friends birthday! So not only do i get to celebrate a friends birthday but the good new a got as well to but to top it all of i get to see the girl im seeing! it been about a week sine our paths last crossed so as you can imagine im quite excited and would even say giddy about tonight, i got up this morning and felt like crap and it got worse all day, now i admit the best thing for me would be to go home get in bed and get some rest but if you think thats my plans for to night you sadly mistaken, there is no chance in hell im going to miss to night. So Coffee, Red Bull and flu tablets should set me of on the right foot to stay alive for to night, i say stay alive as thats the only thing that would stop me from going out, when i think about it i think my friend wouldnt mind if i called a sicky for her party and there will be plenty of time for me the celebrate my new job but there is no chance i would miss a night out with you know who! Mind over matter! Now the question is can i last the night? Well i hope to but im sure feeling the way i do right now i expect to hit a few bumps in the road but bring it on!

I look forward to reading this blog entry tomorrow (day off thank god) to see if my passion is misplaced and foolish or my body can make me proud and take me all the way!

Stay tuned for the day after report!

to fix or not to fix, that is the question!

So after a late night i had the job of fixing my car today, Now to do this i was going to need the parts and thankfully there are some local shops that could possibly have what i needed, so the nest problem how to get there! Now after doing some searching on google i found this thing where u put one foot in front of the other, shift you weight and move the other foot past the other one and so on and so forth, they call it 'walking'. What a strange and new fangled way of getting round, so always up for new and exciting things i thought i would give it a try and what do you know it works, granted it not as fast as a car and you dont get any luxury that you would normal take for granted from driving but it dose get you where you need to be going. So after mastering this new way to trivial i got the parts i needed and spend an hour or so fitting them, and now for the moment of truth! Would the dam thing start as i did use the very last bit of power to keep my stereo going sat on the side of the road last night, Keys in, lights came on, and hay presto! it started and like nothing had been wrong with it! So i was more than happy but .....

Karma strikes again, for some reason my tinternet/phone line is not working, just take a deep breath and remember these things are sent to try us! i think the line is dead so im hoping there is a problem with the exchange and not a unpaid bill! So for the smart one's who are wondering how can he write his blog with out the use of the internet? Well thats all thanks to the bloke across the street who with his complete lack of router knowledge has left there router open! Now i have tried to explain to them about there open network but he keeps telling me he has a firewall, Im trying to find a stupid stick to beat him with but no luck so far. He started to park in front of me drive way a while ago so i set his router up so he could only connect to the internet for 60secods before he was disconnected, took him 2 weeks to get the message and what do you know! He no longer dose it! You may think this is harsh but it only using my knowledge to get my point across!

So in a nut shell car works, internet doesn’t! i think god my be sat up stairs thinking this bloke is in to good of a mood, lets change that! well he can give it a go but i hate to say (touch wood) he's going to have to try dam hard!

what a night!

so lets get things started, i got the job! Now i feel this is just what i need at this time in my life but this must be true proof of karma cas tonight on the way home i broke down!

The belt to me alternator stopped causing me to lose power and with out power i wasn’t gong any where but what a fun night! the bloke who picked me up was called Gaz and what a top bloke, i happened to be taking video for my next short film and he was more that happy to help with helping me get some good footage (video coming soon!) he also had a beer in his truck! i had a fantastic night even tho my car wasn’t working, it was 2 am before i got home and i have to spend the day tomorrow fixing my car. You cant plan night like this!

still editing video's

V2 of the night out, going to start with bule/green screen soon! not as easy as i thought!

The strat of a new day and all hale the bloggers

So if you have read my last blog you will know that my mood last night want best, not because of a crap day or night as i has lots of fun and really enjoyed spending time out and about but just the situation im in made me feel crap, so after i published my blog i had a quick read and noticed i had started to get comments from fellow bloggers! That was a good feeling so this blog is dedicated to them, its strange how it can be the smallest thing which can change your mood or out look on life

So
yo4rker,
onfoyou,
dronbyfot,
em0,
robinshood,
oldtownboys,
echo11,
bestusedcarrs,
best4chance and
cinemec

THANKYOU!

I hope you can be happy that your comments changed my mood for the good and today is a good day and i feel fantastic!

Snakes on plane!

Tonight i got to watch Snakes on plane! Trekked over to Switch Island over near Liverpool to with it with the Girl Friend (ok i did just call her Girl friend but i haven’t got the time to go in to that one right now) and i really enjoyed it, don’t get me wrong i don’t think it will be going in my top 10 films but still it was good, some very funny bit in the film and i did jump a few times but who can blame me there were fucking loads of snakes, big ones little ones and all with intent to kill kill kill! I think if they could have got away with it they would have called it 'Mother fucking snakes on a mother fucking plane'. Working all the hours god sends and with the clash of our lives it was good to spend some time with you know who! Got some food before the movie and had a good chat, i should have bought flowers! You know with the food and a movie it felt like a date you would buy flowers, next time (not to self sun flowers are the ones to buy)
I find it quite funny as i added an extra 70 miles to my usual trip to and from work with going over to Liverpool but it didn’t even make a difference to me, i know we all know why but im still finding out little things which i haven’t even thought about all this time, one of the draw backs of having some distance between us it the lack of time and a place where we can chill together, im not going on about the stuff that you would think, ok well may be that as well but i think it would make the time we do get allow more valuable its just a shame it few and far between.
But that should change in the future but i do have the feeling at the moment that this time will never come, after talking about moving to Manchester tonight i would quite happily sell my house for 65.000 which is 10.000 under the asking price, i know what some of you may think but you are not the ones living here with all the changes you would like to make with your life’s waiting for something which may not be round the corner. So give me your thoughts and vote now!
I would give anything right this very moment to sell my house, i know i have been up beet about it but right now i feel really really crap, i know about the up and down times but i would do any thing! Its a really shit feeling when all i want to do is get on with the rest of my life, i am to a cretin degree but..............................i don’t know..........................to be honest i could just walk away, the Ex has told me she would sort things out but do you blame me for not having the trust i used to have? Ups and Downs! Think im going to nock the price down!

Its good to talk!

So think back, think back to the time you started to see the person you are seeing right now, can you remember the 1st big phone conversation you had? The thing about phone conversations is you need to keep it going, you don’t want to have the silences where you are stuck for things to say. So after roughly 8 weeks of getting to know the girl im seeing and a few attempts at the phone conversation thing but missed calls or busy at work to came to the night where i would crash and burn or come out soaring! So after getting home last night i gave her a call and 2 hours later got off the phone! 2 HOURS would count as a success in my book, i can understand that this may sound a little odd but hay i can do odd! Now it didn’t feel like 2 hours and i was pleasantly surprised when my phone told me how long i had been chatting, now part of this conversation was a planning what we could get up to tomorrow night, and the plan would be the cinema, so after work im going to shoot over to the wonderful place of Magull and have a visit to the Odeon at switch island, Now for most people vesting the cinema is an ordinary experience but when you have been a projectionist you can easily sit there are pick holes in screens, sound, presentation, lighting, print conditions, seating, customer service, focusing and the list goes on but i don’t think this is what im going to be thinking about so i look forward the evening.

One thing which i did do today is buy a suit, now with the money situation im in you would expect buying suit's would be last on my list but with a job interview coming up at work i needed a suit that would fit me as my old has got to big or i have got smaller, humm not sure which one! But this one fits perfectly, so to get my moneys worth I need a wedding to go to!

So early night planned so im on form tomorrow night, So Night all
x

YouTube is great

After spending some more time searching youtube i found some videos i thought i would share.







hope you like!

After having two days off i was kind a glad i was back to work and only on a short shift, getting home at 3 meant i could get some of the boring day today tasks we all have to endure. One thing i enjoy is how ever strange it sounds is shopping with music, you have to pick the right sound track but when you do it can make eg food shoping a bit more interesting. So while taking the evening easy i got a text inviting me out to Manchester, i know i had just come from there and it only gave me i hour or so to get everything done before i made my way back to Manchester for the second time that day, now i like Manchester but after 6 years the drive has become boring, but like a trooper i decided to go and where would the night take me? well to a house warming party and what would you give some one as a present? Well a cigar! Yep! I have come around to the thinking that when you move in to a new place you have to smoke a cigar, now this is down to the fact of that’s what im going to do and no cheap cigar either, something nice! So after a few drinks (ok enough!) back to staying out in Manchester, now im old enough where i don’t have to ask my mum if i can stay out and the cats were feed so what would be holding me back? Nothing and i done think it could if it tried!
We come back to what i love about Manchester and thats the breakfast at what ever time of the day you want it and yes i did, i managed to drag my self out of bed at about 1 and it did take a lot of effort and not from the beer, 5 mins down the road and another greasy spoon gem, what a breakfast!
Now i wish i could stop typing about night out but HA not today, so after a night of partying and late days i dropped of the girl im seeing at her home (you probably guessed she had something to do with the evening!) then i set of home to wash, new cloths, feed cats and back out to Manchester for a good friends birthdays party around the northern quarter, Now just to remind you buy this point i had gone one day this week with out sleep, spent 2 days down south, been out the night before and had only slept in my bed once this week i could have quite happily just gone to sleep but when i friend becomes involved i can let them down and im glad i didnt, The northern quarter is a really relaxed and chilled out place, spent a lot of time in Blue and then on to a club, not the place that would be first on my list but if i did everything i do again and again i would never find new and exciting things, so by the end of the night i had spent some time drinking, chatting and dancing and had a great time, I even got a sofa to sleep on in a room of 8! spent most of the night giggling!
So now im home and yep i get to sleep im my very own bed! i even got new covers for it!

I did get to see my little sis today, she is the Ex's sister but i have known her for so long i see her as my own sister and she sees me as her brother, she rang me while i was in town and ask me to come and see her so i did! She's not a bad ice skater as she proved to me. So all in all a very very good week and fantastic last few days

My photo's:

What i think is a very cool poster!

House party and the eviction of unwanted scallys.

Printworks at night.

Blue bar.


The Club we finished the night at.



MY sister the expert ice skater.

Hose update: Another viewing tomorrow! Come on luck!

Lets catch up........

The joy of two day off was upon me as soon as I opened my eyes! So after finishing a few lose ends and fitting some more ram in my laptop (makes to cook things faster apparently!) I got to spend the day enjoying life, and who better to spend some of this time with? Come on people don’t you known anything by now! Yep you guessed right! And I took her to have a day shopping although she would let me spend any cash on her! I can understand that but these student don’t have any money and im quite amazed on what a person can actually survive on! So after some food we went back to her flat to drop off some stuff I had, may as well go to good use in someone else flat instead of the bin, after shifting through all the stuff I have it’s a good feeling that something I have would help someone else. So after a few hours of chatting, chilling, trying to under stand the difference of politics philosophy and the philosophy of politics time had run away with our day, So option 1: Drive her back and then home but would be late before I was home Or Option 2: stay exactly where we were and enjoy the best Breakfast Manchester has to offer and when ever you want, So we opted for option 2! Glad option 2 was on the table as I really enjoyed the night, early morning, afternoon and early evening And got to have that great breakfast at 3pm! So after making our way back to Liverpool in what could only be described as torrential rain I made my way back home, it wasn’t the fastest trip as the rain was to heavy but after getting on the motorway to Blackburn I hit would only what could be described as a lake in the fast lane of the motorway, Now being in a car you can imagine that the force and speed of my car may displace some water but that would be an understatement, I would describe my car as being underwater! Only for a few seconds but yep underwater! All I could do is hold the wheel straight as I was aquaplaning and hope that there was more for me to do on this world and hay presto! I was alive and on the other side! Now you may think I could be exaggerating some of the events of that story but the bloke in the car behind may disagree as he spun and stopped in the fast lane,

So I picked up a Trafford Pixies – Doolittle, Rage Agents The Machine - , Spaced Box set and old boy, got to watch old boy to night and I have to say what a film! I just enjoyed ever bit of that film and its been a while since a film has made me squirm, Oh I also got the 10 disc matrix box set when in Milton Kenyans for £15, Bargain!

Took some photo’s of my trip down south!