Just no time and lack of internet

dear readers, sorry for the lack of updates, i just don't seam to have any time! Got a few movies to review and some interesting tails to let you in on, things are good and no bank knocking down my door, got a trip to Manchester tomorrow with a gig to go to, should have some photo's for all of you to see.

Its 2 am and i have a early ish morning call tomorrow so i don't plan to waste the day in bed so this is the end for now! but stay tuned!

night

Hi your through to tech support how can I assist you today?

I have always been interested in computers, TV’s, HiFi, and that sort of thing for many years. this is great when it comes to getting the best for the least amount on money but there is a draw back, well it not a draw back as such but i think i could do with my very own tech support phone line for all friends and family to use when they need the human element to explain what all the tech talk means! for example, a cpu speed is like a big hammer and ram is the speed the hammer travels at! Sometimes its not that easy like when my friend pays £15.99 per month for dialup! WTF you can get broadband for £12.99 but do they want to listen? No! Next case Plz!

But then is the flip side of it, looking at a laptop of you know who and i just want to go through the thing and make it run faster, make all the file association work correctly, virus and spy ware checks and all the routine stuff as its never been done! but will she let me? Nope! Girls!

Things are good and last night wasn’t spent at home, don’t worry i feed the cats before i left and hopefully the Ex will feed them today but lets not forget there is a chance that will get messed up (got to carry some humour with that!) as i don’t think im home tonight! maybe my subconscious is slow moving me to Manchester with out me knowing about it! don’t think i have a problem with that but some money would be nice! Money doesn’t make people happy! it just makes things easier!

So not sure of where i will end up tonight but i know i will have a good time getting there!

x

Back on track

After yesterdays new and pending financial ruin i spoke to the natwest help last night but they were unable to make me an appointment for the morning but did manage to ring me at 8:30am after I got in bed 6 hours earlier! I know it proactive but come on people all I want is two lay inns’s a month and today would have been one! So after me explain I was naked and would that be ok for the reminder of the conversation the lady on the other end sounded happy, I even thought it would have worked to soften her up but no joy, the verdict! Ok but not good, everything now is very tight and if this sale doesn’t go through I think very very drastic measures will have to be taken just to keep the house, I have to speak to the loan people tomorrow but that has headed for the collection department! And the mortgage has a slight stay of execution. Tick tock Tick tock! I even went to the back to sit down and talk all through this but they had no one available! So I got her to put a note on my file saying I had tried to sort this out but the bank were unaccommodating, don’t think that would work in my job, Sorry I cant put that film on I just don’t have the people! Can you make an appointment?

So with some more motivation thanks to yesterdays turn of event (aka getting screwed over) I managed to box up some more stuff and move it over to me mum’s, I think this work good for 2 reasons. 1-I can see what I haven’t packed yet and 2-I can move stuff from her house when I move, after explaining the events she gave me £20! Now I cant tell you how much this helps me right at the time but some how being 26 and taking money of my mum made me feel a little sad, 26! And my mum is giving me the opportunity to buy my tea and food for tomorrow, I know this is short term but at one point today I started to wonder when my life went so wrong, not my present life but the one that put me in the situation.

But I started in a bad mood and finished the day in a good one, why? Not to sure! The thought of what’s to come? The thought of a person? The movies I watched (reviews to come)?
On thing that did make me stand up and take count is an email I got from a friend, it a poem about the loss on September 11th in the New York city attacks.

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will l always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

This made me realize how shot and unpredictable life can be and to take each day like it could be our last, now don’t get me wrong I plan to be here for sometime and I apologies to the people I may upset with that comment but that's my long term plan, Live! It also made me think of people who are special in my life and making every second count.

Another thing which made my hart stop today would have been the unnatural sound coming from my car, now there are some readers out there who would argue my car has never sounded like it should and on a cretin level I can agree but the little thing has kept me alive and keeps on going, tracked it down to the alternator but roller which is slowly slicing my belts! That’s good news coz at one point I thought it could have been the bearings which would cost a fortune and I don’t need to tell you that would not be a good thing! So after some small modification the noise is gone but the problem is still there so that is another trip to the garage but it will have to be a cheap one, I will try looking at it but I don’t hold much hope for that working.

So the plan for the next few days? Go a possible party sat night and its on like Donkey Kong Monday night as there is a work party and I tend to have loads of fun, and why break with tradition a visit to the girl friends to keep my happiness level above normal should be a possibility, after the weekend it should become easier for us to find the time we both want and with out the massive amount of traveling which come on people can only be a good thing!

I hope you are well and enjoying life how it should be!

Night all

How else can i get screwed over?.

Ok to bring you up to speed with my financial standing I now cover 90% of all the out goings from my house, now I used to cover 50% but with the recent turn of events as you can imaging this changed, I got a lot of ‘that’s not my problem’ and other unsupportive comments (as it will be when the house is repossessed!) but as I'm happy so plodded along slowly sinking as I don’t earn enough to cover all the bills but with some saving I had (had as in past tense), the only thing that the Ex need to cover was a lone in both out names, now that’s 10% of keeping the house going from a full time wage so if you can do the maths you would think that it would be doable as I did. But after a phone call today (silver lining is she actually told me about it this time, not the best silver lining!) but that 10% is now just F**KED, the bank will no longer accept any payment from her on the only bill she has and they want to close her account! Now this has an impact on me as my name is on the dam thing as well as hers, why didn’t I just take it off her? Well I could not, in no way afford to pay that as well on top of everything else and the money I have spent on the house to make a quicker sale. So what next? Next stop is the bank to try and slow things down until the sale (please god go through!) of my house, I'm starting to think I'm with in my rights to ask for more that half the money as I have done all the work to the house (unless you class taking some bin bags to the tip and packing up a small hole work) made all the viewing arrangement, working with solicitors and estate agents, covered more that my fair share of all the bills and still been a nice guy about it but yet still months and months down the line I'm getting screwed over.

I add this blog in hopes weeks down the line I will be able to read this and think about the shit time I had to go through to get where I am now humm then, you know what I mean.

Thanks to Cinemec he has spared light on to my recent turn of events, Lissen closely.

Take the average amount of time you have had sex (lets call it one a week) times but the length of time together (10 years) work out how much money I have been scrwed over (£2000) divided buy how may time I had sex and that’s how much it cost me each time. So here it goes

Sex X Length = 520

2000/ 520 = £3.85 per lay!

Now that’s a barging in anybody’s book

Thanks mate!

Ok so now I have more time for you all, so Monday was a long day but fun, a lot of fun! Still have the hassle of travailing which can be crap when you fancy a few drinks or the fact it takes me 50 mins to get home but lets all remember, Short Amount of Time.

The house situation get better, been on to the estate agent today and the survey has been paid for and should be end of this week or beginning of next week but as you may now know im calling them tomorrow to get it for the end of this week, they told me to speed things up I have to get on to everyone and I told them buy then end of this sale they wont like me any more! If it sells my house so be it.

So I got hair dryer! This would be the first hair dryer I have ever owned, as far back as I can remember my hair has never been that long, but over the last few years it would get to a cretin length and I would want to let it grow but after a few weeks it would just annoy me and I would end up getting it cut. Well recently I think I have got the energy or passion to let it get longer than I have ever had it but I did bump in to a problem! That would be drying the dam thing so I got a hair dryer! Got it of ebay and didn’t really pay much attention to all the ‘extras’ as long as hot air comes out one end and its easier to use that the electric heater I used to use I would be happy. So it came yesterday, I got a hair dryer, comb, brush, diffuser!, and 3 curling things! What Im I going to do with curling things? Well im going to try and use them some how just to see what I can come up with.

As for my night last night it was fantastic, got to meet some new people and some people I had only meet briefly before and it went well, ended up in a beer garden (my favourite one) and I got to have the ‘designated driver’ one pint before I hit Coke! This dose annoy me sometimes and please don’t think I have a drink problem but when people are drinking and having fun to be able to only have one drink for me can be crap. But I didn’t let this get me down and powered through the crap feeling to have fun and I did have fun. I ended back at you know who’s house, well her room! (I remember when I used to have a room!) and ended up sneaking out of her house in the wee hours. I don’t really want to go in to much detail and not the type of detail you may be thinking of but lets just say I couldn’t stop smiling until I had to go.

Boo Hoo! I think so! pitty the fool!

Enjoy the day people

Must sleep!

Cant stop for long, it been a long day, up at 7:15am, to work till 4pm then the rest of the night in Liverpool having an excellent night! Would you expect anything less? But not 2:38am has rolled along and my lack of food and sleep has hit me and now I must rest! But be assured if time will allow me I will be back to enlighten you on why such a long day could have been so good.

F

Bus man's Holiday

Hi all, How's tricks? That’s good/not good to hear!

What i have been up to! Well after finishing work yesterday i managed to get to the cinema and watch the new remake of the wicker man, now i have heard a lot about the old one and how good and dark it is which sounded good but how ever sometimes annoying the remake epically when its got an American stamp can become very poor film i found my self liking the film. With Nicolas Cage staring i really enjoyed his slightly crazy character which even brought some humor.
Being in the projection industry you find you become annoyed when the small things about watching a poorly presented film crop ups, and here they are, Hair in the gate, poor seats, out of focus, base and emulation tram line scratch (only small) but instead of being annoyed i enjoyed the film, now may be i have learnt now to block these things out or that’s wasn’t the most important thing that night but the night it self was, It was fantastic to do what most people consider a date, and go to the cinema, get a drink, some chocolate and enjoy a film, and I did! I had an amazing night and can’t wait to make it a regular thing. Now don’t get me wrong there was one crap part of the night but its something im more than willing to put up with it for the time being and that would be the drive, I love my car but I don’t love the M57, M6, and what ever other M I drive down, I don’t thinks it’s the drive but the distance I have to travel and not even the time it takes from my day but the fact its something in the way but with the current turn of event this distance will slowly become shorter and shorter until I car wont even be needed. There was something unexpected to the evening and that was the gift, over the last few weeks I have managed to pick up a few things for her of the great and powerful ebay, just a few posters to bring some color to her new flat but this was returned, now I know what you may think I should have been expecting something like that to happen and maybe I did but this was drawn by her and suited me perfectly and its amazing. Let me get chance to get it in a frame and I will post I pic of it. It was really nice!

So today consisted of a lie in and about god dam time, ok the last lie in I should of lied in I showed the people who are buying my house around so that one is fine but its been along time, I managed 11am, WTF? Not even midday! I also moved a friend in to her new apartment, She is a student so don’t think of a flash pad with glass walls but still it nice and I got out of Salford with my car, keys, money and life so a good job!

So lets talk mood! And it a good one! I was told by someone close to me to just stop and remember I have sold my house! Ever now and then just to remember that there is no reason this won’t go through, and her confidence is starting to rub off! Not just the house but all things in life feel good even if some parts are challenging.
One thing i have started to think about would be my new flat! Come on people say it with me!

New Flat! now i have something’s i would like and that would be, A bed room big enough for a couch, some where to park and enough room to swing a cat if i even wanted to, but just the thought of what could be and chatting with my future flat mate about all the possibilities make me think and start to look around, now i have looked around but now its serous as this will be my new home, my brother has an estate agent friend so there is the chance of great things here!
And all this still with a cough and a bugger one at that! But my body is a temple (not quite sure to who yet) and i think it will be victors!

Night all x

Day trip to Liverpool

I got to travel to the beautiful city of Liverpool to have a look around and see some of the sights and what a day, it have some beautiful buildings and small bars and cinema's, all i could ever need i think, got some photo's of the Cathedral which don’t show the true scale of the place, its huge! i mean really big

As for the photo of the person
in the stain glass im sure its a he
but it could be a her who just
looks like a he, answers on a post card!

I had a wonderful day and even got to look round the FACT cinema, Projection tend to stick together so they were more than happy to show us around the projection booths, and what nice booth's they had! Government run! all the money in the world!
I did get to see you know who and about god dam time! It was really nice to get to spend some time together as for me it seams to be few and far between but hopefully i can change that this week depending on out side events, Something i have to keep reminding my self is this all on a time scale, it wont be to long down the line when i think back and it will be like a distant memory and i could never think of living any where else apart from Manchester.
The house is moving along, spent yesterday bugging the estate agent, trying to get things moving quicker as the chat with the bank didn’t go well, Natwest Sucks and HSBC Rocks! i cant believe how different both banks can be but makes me sure im going back to HSBC when i move, they love me unlike Natwest. But now i have accepted the offer its all just time and a bit of luck but the hard part is over! So So So Happy!

Pan's Labyrinth is a new film coming out and it looks amazing, you all should check out the trailer here It looks like it could be something wonderful but being in Spanish it would have to come with subtitles which in my books is a set back (yep its just laziness)

Lets get the ball rolling!

Hi all, Lets start with some good news! I have had a serous offer on my house! Can you believe it! I cant! I cant describe how happy this makes me, and other viewing tomorrow! This could be the start of the end in a cretin way and im so so so happy!

Went out Sunday and had a fantastic day, yes day of drinking, lets see how it went

It was really good to meet up with some old friends and chat over old times, and find out how and where all our lives have take us, I seam to be the only one with out kids, which is not to say I have it better but kinda makes me think how difficult things could have been for me now.

So another night out tomorrow hopeful although I have hit a financial wall, so a chat to both banks is on the books as well as the estate agent, selling a house takes time and that’s something I seam to be running out of but that’s not going to stop me from having fun. And I have plans to see the girl friend as again its been a while and im really looking forward to seeing her as would any boy friend, I know over the last few blogs I may have come across as a little down in the dumps but I really feel things are on the up, I still have some way to go but god dam its in the right direction and im determent to make this sale work with every ounce of being. And my mood change is partially down to some one who has really helped me through this time in my life and not with money or help on my house but with my mind and the way to deal with things which im not going in to, please don’t think im so unhinged I’ll just kill every one at work but I think any one going through tough times in there life have ‘issues’ that crop up and most of the time it thing you would never even think could be a problem but saying that I have been told two things recently which stuck in my mind.

1, I didn't land on my feet, I landed on my feet running!

2, For me to feel the way I do I must have wanted this.

And when you friends who have know me for some time tell me they have never seen me so happy this makes me feel a live, even with the carp I cant remember being so truly happy, I mean happy to the core! Something I have started to do is ‘enjoy the moment’ We go through life planning the next minute, hour, day, week, month, year instead of just stopping and enjoying right now, a meal, a drink, company, and with out the joy from such simple things what’s the point of everything? Don’t get me wrong planning for the future is sensible but so is taking time out to enjoy right now.

So it to late and someone has to be up early so good night all

Afternoon of drinking planned

Im going to catch up with some old friends today for a few drinks and soon pool! im looking forward to it as it been a long long time since we all came together.

As for the last few days they have been ok, got load done yesterday in my new role at work which was really good, think after my down i hit an up and feel great and positive, another true example of ups and downs? The day before i helped my mum wit here new laptop, spent 4o mins driving round looking for an unprotected wifi network to download her latest updates (if your that stupid not to protect you wifi network then you should expect some car parked out side you house using you internet) as her dialup was taking forever to download the dam things, i think dialup should be outlawed.

So got to go and get drunk,

love you!

starting to notice a pattern

I want to sell my house and move on with my life, what more can i say! AS i sit here with things going well all i want right now is to move, its like i can see what my life can be but cant get there, all the fun, joy, love, happiness and its all just out of reach, i almost get a glimpse of what can be before i have to come back to the reality of what and where i have to be, i suppose i have to get through the carp times to get to the good but i wish i could just move on and be the person i want to be and where i want to be but hey that’s life!?!? I wish it wasn’t!

Tomorrow is a new day and you never know it may be the day i have been waiting for and i try to keep the sunny side of life going but there seams to be a place where this becomes difficult and that’s where i once called home, but now it just a place, some where i keep my stuff and sleep and have to come back to, notice the word 'have' as if i had the choice i would never come back to but have to day after day.

maybe its my man flu, maybe i have just had enough, maybe im right, maybe im scared but all i know for sure is right now.... well its not a good feeling but tomorrow is a new day and im at work and not home so things will be better.

Night all where ever you maybe!

my trip home vid (about time!)

Good evening all, so after some very hard work with adobe’s video editing software and on help from the forum I managed to get the dam video made of my wonderful trip home from work last Saturday,

Well my deadly illness is still with me and I even thought about checking with the NHS to see if there are any wild, tropical strains of the flu going round as this doesn’t feel good, the other possibility is I have Man Flu, now this isn’t to be confused with any other types of flu and should be taken very seriously as it is life threatening! Ok maybe not but god dam its taken it toll on me! As for the rest of everything else? Its all good, its not easy at work just getting this promotion and being ill as this is the time I put all the effort in and with the next few weeks looking like a baptism of fire I really need to get me game on, got quite a heavy day of planning for my day at work and I may even possibly watch a film seeing I only have 1 free ticket left to last me the next 4 weeks! But it all depends on how I feel as at the moment all I want to do is sleep!

No more new on the house and how ever I try to stay positive it slowly becoming hard, also the fact no matter how much money I save or don’t spent it is impossible for me to earn enough to cover all the bills I have been landed in, time is becoming more and more of an issue but hey in not going to let it get me down as there is nothing I can do about it!

Time to sleep, night all x

So if you followed my last blog you would know I didn't exactly feel like a million dollars last night and with an impending night out planned it was my full intention to go out and enjoy it, can I say my plan work hands down, after what I could describe as a massive intake of caffeine I was more than ready of a fantastic night out and guess what! I did! The only thing that let me down was my voice and god did it hurt to talk.

So it started off with me meeting the girl friend and a good friend of hers so we could make our way to the karaoke bar, It was good to see her as it had been about a week since our last encounter and how ever much I want to keep what I have casual and what you would describe as any new relationship a week for me felt like a long time, epically when I have such a good time when im around her. So we made our way to the bar and despite the venue being not the best place in Manchester I had a fantastic time, I got to meet up and have a great time with some work friends and some old faces I don’t see as often, So after quite a few beers and loads of fun later (pictures supplied) and at the very end of the night we made our way back to hers which included a conversation about which is more painful, child birth or getting kicked in the nuts! We decided one was natural and the other wasn’t so we couldn’t compare but being a man you can imaging where my vote lies, now don’t forget I felt very very rough a few hours before this but I was still going strong at 4am so I think my plan of medication worked a treat. I only managed a few hours sleep before I took both of them out for a full English breakfast and a brew, I don’t even want to get started which is better, Tea or coffee! Come on Coffee drinkers back me up here! After a bus ride in to Manchester I left them both and picked up my stuff from work to make my way home until I decided I didn't want to stop the day there when it comes to the girl in my life so after some confusing text I decided to give them both a lift home, now this did add some mileage to my trip but to spend a little more time chatting it was well worth it. Now im happy which is all I need and the rest is just not worth think about so I as I hope you see had a amazing time, what is a good feeling is this is a two way thing and we plan to meet up aging soon but with work and other plans in life I know this wont be as soon as I would like but hey that’s life!

Back to the boring parts of life but I did manage to get a phone conversation sparked by the resent youtube new stories with her which toped my night off, now as for youtube I think it fantastic and what every you look at in detail will have parts that society wont like and that’s what is happening with youtube now, it funny to hear people say ‘they will shut it down’ Plz people you must be having a laugh, there is no chance and I would protest if they tried as I think it is a wonderful expression and has some amazing films/videos.

Now with my illness and lack of sleep I intend to get in bed before midnight, the last time this happened I think I was still as school but needs must and all that!

I would have put me new video of my breakdown online by now but with the state of the art editing software falling short when it comes to some easy clips im having trouble but I will stick with it and with all the power I have will try and get it on line soon.

Have fun!