My home

So after spending 13 hours at work in one room for a good part of the day I was so happy when the last hour of my shift started, got my bag ready, all the night jobs done, trainers on and ready for home! But ......... I got out of my prison of the last 13 hours and I didn't want to go. 2 hours later and im just leaving work to make my 25 mile trip home and I could have stayed at work forever. Why is this? It wasn't about earning any extra money as I was clocked off but still was happy. Its not that im sad at home just ........................................ (humm not sure, you can fill in the blank, answers on a post card and the funniest wins two cinema tickets)

Keep posted, life goes on!

Life goes on

"You can never let any thing new in to your life you never let things out of you life"

"You only stop and look at your life when you get of the tread mill"

"happiness"

Could you afford an extra £200 per month?

So after slowly getting somewhere with the back and trying to get rid of the outstanding payments to make it easier of the X to keep up with the payments i now find my self having to pay the dam bill my self, so instead of paying 50% of the bills for the house i am now going to be paying 75% of the bills, Dose this mean i get 75% of what ever I make on the house? Don’t think so!
It almost feels like a trade, i pay 75% and the other half to this break up stats to help, granted its still early days yet and there has only been 2 major things done from a very long list buy 'The Other Side' but i hope with all of my being that it continues.

So after ringing the bank to explain the present situation I stared to get the feeling that the lady at the end of the phone was not that bothered about speaking to me, i say this as when I said if all else fails and im still living in my house months and months down the line I would kill my self to which she replied that’s nice! THATS NICE! what the F**K!

Ok got to go, do some work and all that. But before I go!


Car update :

So, just texted my friend who could get some one to work on my car and nothing! after 2 days zip. The saga continues.

My gay cat Indi

Thought i would give you an insite to indi's life in the garden.

P.s all shot on my phone.

How much!

So trying to get through the next couple of months (only a couple please god) could be better if I didn’t get a final demand for £35000 (yes that’s British pounds) for my bank, due to the lack of payments there not to happy so another thing to add to my list of things to do. after a pleasant conversation i was about to get a stay of execution and with my ISA cashed in should keep me treading water for the time being but why im I dong all the work. Two people own this house but again and again it seams to be only me wanting to get on with our life’s, I hope this will change.

One thing that has helped me with all the work is my Mum, What a slave driver! Every spar minute she has she is round at my house helping with the work needed to make a quick sale as i could put it on the market now and spend the next year trying to sell or I could make it a more better looking sale buy making my house look good, I though this would be simple to understand for anyone selling a house but not sure if the 'other side' of this brake up understands this or if they do cant be bothered to help a member of there own family.

So things done in the last 2 days :

1. All the paint work in bathroom and kitchen cleaned and painted twice, although it could do with a few tough ups.
2. The ceiling in bathroom and kitchen painted once but needs another coat.
3. The second major clean out leaving a pile of stuff to go to the tip, hoping i can get the X to do that as she got a estate car, you can much more in that thing than my sleek corsa (yes sleek).
4. Sanded all the grouting in the bathroom to be re grouted.
5. Kitchen floor scrubbed, took bloody ages but looks good.

Its not the biggest list but still a good few days work, Don’t forget I have to get on with everyday life and fit this carp in around it all.

What a week

Well to start this week was a staff party, and well what a party. I tend to Jude nights out on how much money I spend and if I have a good time, it’s not much to ask but it works for me. And as for the staff party I had a fantastic time and didn’t spend much. It also nice to see people you work with out and about, especially people who you may not go out with as much as you would like. I did end up with a 2 day hang over! One of the draw backs of getting older (not to old). And to top the night off I stayed at a good friends so I didn't have to sleep on the street. I have one more comment about the party and that’s GIRLS, the work uniforms don’t do any of you any justice and to be honest it doesn’t do any of the blokes and favors.

I don’t know about you but I don’t like to put people out, but recently I have leant that that’s what friends do and you know what it’s a good feeling when someone is prepared to help you out when you need it.

So after a 2 day hangover and a busy week the opportunity to go out again on Friday night for a friends birthday could not be turned down, so out and about again and another a fantastic night. Catch up with old friends and talk more to new friends and get drunk was the plan and it worked, just to be out and about was a good feeling. And back to the 'putting people out' and back to my friends house to get some sleep (if 2 hrs can be some) and I hope you are starting to see how much this helps me when I live some distance from Manchester. Back in to work for another hung over day but it was all worth it again, So when I tell you I then went out for ANOTHER drink after work im starting to see a pattern! Dose this mean I have to sit in a room with a bunch of strangers discussing how booze is bad for me? Hummm don’t think im quite there yet! But how could I turn down a drink after such a good run of night out and possibly other reasons :-) so out I was again but you will be glad to hear just the 1 and then back home, did make me feel less hung over for the train home which was unexpected though welcome.

Now to set the house work to max over the next few days, it difficult having to trust someone who you on longer feel like you can trust but with this gives motivation which is welcome. Nothing will happen over night and im ready for the down times as i have such good time over the last week but you never know this may be slowly becoming part of my past and not my future. Don’t forget there is always a silver lining in most shits situations its just being able to see it. I now starting to see change in my house which help when putting so much work in.

Will i have been up for 22 hrs and now im starting to feel it so i will leave with this message.

To all my friends and family, you know who you all are. Thankyou! I cant thank you enough for the support and love I have got through this time of my life, you give me the strength to get on with things and make the changes in my life that I want to make. I wish I could describe the way this makes me feel.

So on that rather soppy note, Good Night.